Ken Allan at Middle Earth has set the theme for this month’s Green Pen Society blogging. He asked for reflections on, “What gets you flying”? I am not a natural writer. I have experienced failure in writing on numerous occasions. I brought poems in grade ten to my English teacher. He gave a muted, less than enthusiastic response to my writing. I was discouraged. I regularly received grades of a “B” or less in university at twice the effort of my husband-to-be’s A papers. My comments were routinely something like, “A well-researched paper”. My mother often mentioned having difficulty making sense of my writing. I recall comments such as, “What are you talking about here?” Still, I became a blogger. Why? I was and am exploring the fun and features of the world wide web. I want to understand how it works, and what it can be used for. I write to save my ideas, play with avatar makers, learn to post pictures and videos. I enjoy hearing from people around the world and batting ideas around with them. I feel connected to some of my online colleagues and participate because of my relationship with them. I am inspired by my colleagues.
Having a blog was my Master’s project but I didnt’ quit when my Master’s was complete. I have floundered a little as the project was completed and I wasn’t sure how to continue and yet didn’t want to completely shut things down. I have not been sure of the purpose of my blog and not having a purpose made it difficult to post. My posts became less frequent and still are. I am beginning to see a place for myself in book reviews from a teacher librarian’s perspective. My reviews steer away from lengthy descriptions of plot and character and towards the possible connections and uses for the classroom. I am inspired by my work.
Mostly the reviews are for me. I want to remember authors and titles for future endeavours. I love hearing from authors. They pop up from time to time and comment on my reviews. Knowing they might be reading my reviews is a daunting idea. I want to give honest opinion but I may well hurt someone’s feelings. I don’t like that idea at all. I am hoping my awareness of author as audience will not make me censor myself too stringently. I have a great respect for authors, people who write well and make vibrant and believeable worlds into which I may walk. I am inspired by great books.